Decisions

Hello my fine friend! How are your feeling today? Okay? Well, my day was pretty uneventful. The usual classes and people at school, if you know what I mean... ;) Anyway, I had a student services appointment today in order to switch from french to gym. Why, you ask? Because french doesn't like me and the feeling is mutual, thats why. So I'm talking to the guidance councillor and he's looking at my course plan for grade 11 and he's talking about mandatory courses and classes and planning and and how much work I'm going to have ahead of me. And all I'm thinking is ".... future.... confusing.... don't know what the heck I'm doing.... oh no, more work?.... should I?... I don't like choosing.... am I making the right choice?....etc" By a show of hands, how many of you have ever felt that way at some point of your life? Anybody? Oh right, this is a blog post so I can't see you. But I'm assuming most people have. That feeling of having to make choices that will affect the rest of your life, the worry of what will happen if you make the wrong choice, always comparing yourself to others even though it doesn't matter at all. That's how I was feeling after I left the Student Services office. I'm sure whatever I choose to do when I grow up, I won't have a problem with marks slowing me down or anything like that. I'm a straight A student (or I guess straight 90s 'cause in high school they use fancy percentages and averages to confuse kids and make them feel stupid). I guess the lesson I should take from this, and you can learn too if you want but no pressure, is not to worry too much about the future. All we can do is plan for the future and hope that it works out. I have to focus on what's best for me at the time and make decisions, that might not end up being the right ones, based on the information I have at the time. One of my favourite quotes is "I guess that's all forever is, just one long trail of nows." from the Horse Whisperer by Nicholas Evans. I think it's a good sentiment to remember, so it's my quote of the day. Sincerely, Sam